Another baby definitely wasn’t part of the plan!
Despite having two young toddlers, I’m generally quite perky at this time of the day. Odd, I thought as I made a beeline for the sofa. I wrote it off as just
“…one of those things.”
But the next day was the same, and the next. Oh no, I’m getting in the habit of napping during the day. I must be getting old.When I woke from my nap I immediately went to the cupboard in search of chocolate. Now, I have not eaten chocolate in months, in a successful bid to shift the pregnancy weight from last time. What’s going on?
So yeah, you guessed it. I’m pregnant again. It has come as a bit of a shock. Our youngest just turned 1 and our eldest not yet 3, another baby definitely wasn’t part of the plan. It actually wasn’t the tiredness or the chocolate cravings that made me take the test. I was just wondering where my period had got to. The moment I started weeing on the stick, I felt silly.
I’m obviously not pregnant! I could hear the girls playing on the landing (they have to follow me to the toilet of course). I dismissively placed the test on the side of the sink. As I washed my hands I glanced down at the window. I took a sharp intake of breath and held it in as the positive result registered. I couldn’t wait to tell David. I know he’ll be shocked.
It was pouring with rain outside so I used that as my excuse to pick him up from the station that evening. I strapped the girls into the car and pinned my TFL ‘Baby on Board’ badge to my jacket. Coincidentally, I had found this the other day when I was tidying up. When David got into the car,
“I was smiling and on the verge of crying all at once.”
He could see there was something I was trying to tell him, but he hadn’t seen the badge. I told him I needed to pop into the shop to get some vitamin tablets. It dawned on me that I hadn’t been taking Folic Acid or vitamin D supplements, so I wanted to get on it straight away. “OK” he said, “is everything alright?” I then gestured to the badge with my gaze.
I was trying to read the surprised look on his face. “You’re pregnant?” he asked as he pulled me close. I of course burst into tears. “Are you sure?” As I opened the car door to go into the shop he suggested that I pick up another pregnancy test. The first test was a very clear positive but I bought a second one anyway to confirm it.
I’m having mixed emotions right now. Don’t get me wrong, being pregnant is the most amazing thing and the thought of us having another child makes me feel so happy. But c’mon, I feel like we’re just starting to get back on our feet. In the last 3.5 years I’ve been pregnant 3 times, had 2 beautiful babies and suffered a miscarriage. That’s a lot of work, both physically and mentally. Am I really up to the challenge again?
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